COMING HOME WITHOUT SHRINKING
As my time in Guatemala is coming to an end, I’m reflecting on this tender weird feeling that comes up when it’s time to go home after being away for a long time.
After spending so long creating my own reality - freely, intuitively, just following what feels right - going back can make me feel like I need to fit myself into some kind of box. Like I should have a clear title, a plan, something easy to explain. A “job” or a “path” that people can easily understand.
And when I don’t, there’s this subtle urge to shrink myself a little… energetically, just to be more digestible. To mold myself back into who I used to be after or into something that feels more familiar to others. Like I should pretend I don’t live guided completely by my heart, moment to moment, blindly trusting the next step will appear.
Especially now that it’s been almost a year since I left my corporate job. And there’s no little simple answer I can give people when they ask, “So what are you doing now?” But I’ve never felt more aligned. I feel like I’m living my purpose, even if I can’t explain it in a couple of bullet points.
The more I soften, the more I trust, the more life gives me, more and more. Even if following the heart feels sometimes so difficult and forces me to move through challenges and trust, I see it all as part of the game, seeing behind the veil. The right people show up, synchronicities and magic happens. I feel supported in ways I couldn’t have planned. And I know that if I stay open and honest and true to what I’ve learned, everything else will fall into place.
Maybe going home isn’t about fitting back into something. I feel like it’s such an important part of the journey that deepens me in my truth even more, bringing this version of me back with softness and strength and sovereignty. Staying rooted in my path and knowing that a path that is clear and has been done before isn’t your own. Remembering that I’m fully allowed to create a life that looks and feels totally my own.
If you’re on a similar path, I see you and I celebrate you. And I trust you’re exactly where you need to be.
MY STORY
I grew up in Finland, where movement and music were a big part of my world. As a competitive gymnast, I learned discipline, strength, and grace. Music was my soul’s language - I sang, played piano, and performed from an early age, attending a music school. In my family, music was how we connected, playing and singing together as a shared expression of love.
In 2017, I moved to London for university, stepping into a new world on my own. I experienced the full spectrum of life—its highs and its depths. I attended an industrial placement year in London working in a media company and for the first time in my life I started feeling anxiety and every day stress. I found myself feeling disconnected from my body and spirit. During the lockdown of 2020 I was stuck in a foreign country and supporting my partner at the time who was struggling with their mental health - I found myself in a dark time. It was then that yoga really found me. The simple practice became a lifeline, guiding me back to myself. Through a daily asana practice and meditation, I uncovered this deep sense of inner strength, like nothing could shake me from my core. Life started to feel like magic was woven into every moment. I started imagining and creating a life that I really loved and that authentically felt true to me.
Yoga is a homecoming. It teaches us to stay present in discomfort, to breathe through challenges, and to move with an open heart. It showed me how deeply the body, mind, and spirit are connected, unlocking emotional blocks I hadn’t even known were there. As I deepened my practice, I discovered Dharma Yoga in London, a path of devotion, community, and surrender. This practice resonated with me deeply and I found deep purpose in this practice, getting me through working in a corporate job.
Along the way, my love for music and yoga intertwined. Singing, chanting, and sound became a natural extension of my practice, a way to express the depth of emotion and presence that words alone could not. I began exploring sound healing, mantra, and the transformative power of the voice. The vibrations of sacred sound open the heart, clear energy blockages, and guide us back to our essence.
In November 2023, a transformational journey to Peru marked one turning point in my life. I completed a yoga training that deepened my practice and solidified my commitment to the path of yoga and sound. This was followed by a magical trip to India, where my connection to these ancient traditions deepened even further. In October 2024, I immersed myself in Bali, completing a 200-hour yoga training before traveling to Guatemala for a 100-hour Sound Ceremony training.
At Lake Atitlán, I found a place that resonated deeply with me. I began teaching yoga and offering sound journeys. Now, I am based in Guatemala while moving between Finland, London, and other places that inspire me.
POWER OF YOUR VOICE
Sharing music and singing has been a huge part of my life since I was little. I went to a music school, performed, and sang in all kinds of groups and bands. But back then, it was mostly about performance, about sounding good, which, in a way, made sharing music feel pressured.
Through yoga, I was introduced to music in a completely different way. On Friday nights after Dharma class, we would sing together, and I’d feel this deep joy, a blissful sense of connectedness. I found myself singing and playing again, not to perform, but simply for the pure joy of it—for the way it made me feel, how it transported me into a timeless space, free from thought, immersed in the present moment, filled with love and joy. Connected with everything in that moment.
Coming to Guatemala for a sound ceremony training deepened this connection even further. I learned beautiful sacred songs from around the world, explored the power of the voice through activation practices, and experienced what it means to share my voice as an authentic, unfiltered expression. This journey has been about rediscovering music in a way that is not about being perfect but about being real. Authenticity doesn’t always sound pretty, and that’s where the beauty is. There is magic in creating for the sake of creation, in offering music from the heart simply because it wants to be shared. Your voice holds power - keep sharing it!
